When Mistress logs in get this brief flutter in my stomach. I always have. I see that blue box pop up and my mind sort of clamors for a moment, wondering if everything is as it should be for her.
The days I don't see her are of course a disappointment. No fluttering, no clamoring but she is still with me and I am here for her.
Today I missed Mistress, the clamoring and the fluttering but at least things got no worse for me. If all I do is stand here alone and do my mantras, I have a hope of this ending for me, no matter how long it takes.