Totally lost

I had no clue what you wanted from me. I still don't. I tried to emote and you zapped and I spoke and you zapped. I can't describe how completely drained I am. Thank God the phone rang. I answered and left him on hold for about 3 minutes while I tried to calm myself and even then he kept asking if it was a good time to talk. I've given you all that I have and all that I know how to give. I've told you every secret about me and I've told you how I look forward to seeing you and you used it against me. I just don't know what you want.