It isn't obey when I can or if I can or if it fits into my schedule. It's just plain obey.
Ever since I've started working - at a 'real' job - I have enjoyed privilege and freedom beyond what my peers have gotten. It has been due to a combination of things but mostly it is my abilities, my personality and honestly I feel like it has had something to do with my appearance. At work I've been able to do what I want, how I want and when I want and in SL the same has been true for the most part.
Prior to being with Mistress I was in Gor and had the same privileges there as I do at work. I just charmed my way into almost a celebrity status and didn't have to really follow any rules or do what most of the others there had to do. It was sort of this unwritten rule that I was somehow exempt.
It was nice at first and then became a complete bore. I found myself wishing that I would be treated like the others were. I finally have that with Mistress and I am trying to do to her what I do at work and what I did in Gor. She is smart enough to have spotted it and told me that it won't work with her and I am just barely smart enough to recognize it and agree.
I have so many routines in the way I deal with things and how I prioritize what I need to do. Some of it makes sense and some of it is probably unique to me. I have a tendency to put things off when I could probably get them done... which I guess isn't all that unique. It's just lazy. Mistress called it cheating, which confused me for a while. I got too hung up in the definition and missed the point that I hadn't done what she asked of me by the deadline she gave me. Lazy, cheating, call it what you will, I didn't get it done.
I am in no position to argue with her, or look for loopholes or be lazy. I must be obedient and do as she says, as a minimum.
[13:48] Jacquelin Mazi: you COULD have made more effort to contact Xandra for the dance club
[13:48] Jacquelin Mazi: you COULD have made an effort to contact dina
[13:48] Jacquelin Mazi: you COULD have started making a list of what I need so you can cross them off in the future
[13:48] Jacquelin Mazi: you COULD remember to focus more on emotions and listening to my words
I have slowly slipped from impressing Mistress to being about average or worse. It might be due to work and such but the fact is that I have changed with Mistress and she deserves the old me rather than the more recent lazy, cheating, call it what you will me.
About Me
- Emilee Gackt
- Because of her disarming wit and utter charm, a gackt is prone to fits of entitlement and privilege and affects an extremely calm demeanor in the face of adversity, perhaps believing that she can will events around her to bend in her favor. She can be as slow to learn as she is persistent, sometimes taking weeks (or even months in the most acute examples) to be convinced to act in accordance with and abide by the simplest wishes of her owners and superiors. ¸.•*´*•.¸¸.•*´´*•.¸¸.•*´*•.¸¸.•*´ The typical gackt is patient, smart and leans towards sarcasm (perhaps in defense of some unmentioned hurt she has suffered). Gackts are unhurried and deliberate and will be most productive in a familiar environment. To her own undoing, a gackt is usually rather casual with rules, preferring to focus on the goal rather than how to get there. she is a tolerant and understanding listener and people find her easy to talk to and feel no pressure or impatience from her, finding instead a faithful friend and follower who is likely to take on more than she can reasonably be expected to endure.
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