Total bugger tonight!

i logged in and out about 9 times in 15 minutes tonight. i'm not sure if it is a weather problem messing with power lines or the Internet or just SL being goofy again but i finally gave up in a fit of near SL strangulation.

Sorry Jan!

Late and overdue

i have a friend in SL whom i have known for at least a year, probably more. She felt a bit put off by the fact that Mistress had me uncheck that box on my Friend's List that shows if i am online. She would make friendly attempts at conversation but being in Europe (and me being in Asia for most of the year so far), our conversations were limited to offline IMs, with her usually being the one to initiate things.

i am pretty sure i have lost her as a friend because she lost patience with the challenges of being a friend with me. She had to endure:

• The friend's list check-box issue
  
• The utterly opposite time zones
• My short responses to her 'pings'
  
• The cultural differences?
• My busy-ness

That last one... that's the tricky one. i am as busy as i am because i don't manage my SL time as well as i could and perhaps should. True, i have to constantly be blogging and Mistress almost always has me doing some project for Her but i should make time in all that for people since they are what really matters in either world - RL or SL. Kind of blurs the lines a bit, doesn't it?

Mistress has been utterly busy lately and i haven't seen Her since July 9th. That is the longest i have gone without seeing Her since we met. i went from missing Her to hoping that all is well with Her to feeling deprived of Her and so on.

Every day i felt a little more needy and felt constrained in telling Her that for some reason. Something about being with Her always makes things so clear for me. Probably because She is a strong personality and is rather direct with me.

i love her and love being with Her in a very... not romantic way... not sexual at all but... it's admiration. Being with Her is almost like being with a parent or guardian; everything is right and proper when she is there and i flounder in a sea of gacktiness when she is away, especially for so long.

i have also been wondering how things will be for Jan in SL. Will She spend any where near the time here that she has? /me shrugs. We'll see i guess.

Managing things post Manila

i guess i got spoiled in a way while i was in the Philippines. With my family (small but still a family) so far away, i got used to being able to log in to SL whenever i wanted since i wasn't taking time from anyone or anything else that i cared about.

Now that i'm home it's quite different and i made a decision to log in according to a schedule (every other day). Honestly it was as much my idea as Mistress' but the point is i am spending less time in front the computer and more time in the pool or reading with Mr. Gackt, walking Lucy, going out with friends... all the things that you do in a normal life.

And i'm happier because of it.

And it also means that seeing and hearing from people that i care about in SL is even more special since i see them less frequently, especially when those people are busy themselves... getting married or just having a challenging go of it in RL.

i'm glad to have my RL and SL somewhat in order.

Hanging around

i sat around for a while doing that Mistress hates that i do - sitting around. When i realized what i was doing, i went to the Ranch and almost immediately got into a nice conversation with a man from Canada.

He had a blank profile and had only been in SL for about 2 months so i launched into my standard newbie sermon:

• Put something in your profile
• Get an AO
• Stop with the constant lol-ing!
• etc.
  

In the middle of it all he asked if i was sure that i was submissive. It seems odd to me that people don't feel that a submissive person could or should give advice. i wasn't trying to control him; i was just trying to help.

At some point while we are talking he asked how long i had been submissive. Is this something that people learn to be or something that people are. Is it like enjoying a flavor of ice cream or more like being left handed? i've always felt that i was born like this and the experiences i've had in life have brought it out in me. It isn't something i decided to be. It is something i am.

On tonight's episode:

i started working on the graphics project again. It turns out that SL is a fantastically complicated piece of engineering. Who'd have imagined that?

Cross your fingers for me on this one. Once i am done, we'll all know what things like disk cache size mean and where to set it.

Today's major events in SL:

Major might be overstating it a bit but today i worked on RLV again. i re-read Marine's blog about the things that are giving Mistress trouble and discovered a couple of things:

• i can access the folder myself! This will make getting it fixed lots easier and quicker.
• The problem doesn't seem to be with the names of the folders. Folders are apparently named just so they show up in a particular order in the menu system that RLV uses.

i need to get out of mouse look so i can work on this more effectively. i fear that this will be harder than it sounds.

i am waiting to talk with Mistress about a couple of important things and will of course, make updates to the blog accordingly.

my lines are done but RLV is still a...

...bugger.

i had a long paused conversation with Jan tonight. The long pauses were the times that i was typing on lines and She was working on making a pair of hose.

She even helped me with my lines:

"I will not chew gum in class."

i thanked Her for the help but expressed some doubt that we could slip that one past Mistress.