I got a decent chunk of time with Mistress last. Finally.


I also got a decent chunk of cherry pie on Thanksgiving so in a way, Mistress is a lot like cherry pie. Sweet and tart with a flaky crust and both are yummy with ice cream.


Anyway... I'm back in the world of the clothed and the speaking and I must say that in a way I'm disappointed. Mistress had planned a rather lengthy curriculum for me and has had to change her plans.

She described some things about a mutual friend that were so true of me. Kind of a vague sense of needing approval, needing to belong to someone, needing to be protected. There is more of course but really the heart of it is just what I feel and just what Mistress gives me, regardless of whether she knows it.

If our friend can find what I have in Mistress then I wish her nothing but happiness. My mom's husband would correct me and tell me I should say 'naught but happiness.' Good thing it's none of his beeswax I guess.

It makes me sad that our friend will not find another like Mistress. She is unlike any other.

Watching the news the other night I noticed a reporter who was nearly an identical twin of my SL friend Rachelle. Look:

It is uncanny to me how much they look alike. I wish I had a decent picture of SL Rachelle to compare.

Rachelle is a better friend than this woman is a reporter.

I usually have it pretty lucky either way in SL. Most nights that I log in I am pretty certain to see either Jan or Mistress and tonight it happened that Mistress wasn't online and Jan was so we spent a few very quickly passing hours just catching up on things.

It was a very nice time indeed and I do miss Mistress.

I debated over whether I should blog, or if I am even allowed a this point. I finally decided that I would because it would be less worse to than to not blog.

I am still awed by Mistress sometimes. Her punishments are so tailor made it seems and she knows just how to make things hurt. We were together tonight for a bit and last time for a while longer but still it seems like I haven't seen her in an age. It is odd to miss someone who is right in front of you.

Ow

I ordered a pizza for dinner last night and walked over to get it with Lucy. The pizza place (a little neighborhood store called Domino's) is only about 1/4 mile from the house so Lucy and I usually walk to pick up our order instead of having it delivered.

On the way home I noticed a man with a dog coming towards us and so I veered off towards Walgreen's (another local shop) to avoid any potential leash tugging and pizza dropping. As I stepped off the sidewalk behind Walgreen's, my foot landed on a largish rock that I hadn't noticed because I had a leash in one hand and a pizza in the other. My foot rolled off the rock and when I collapsed in shock/pain, Lucy came and started licking my face. Somehow the pizza survived.

I called Dave, who had is phone on vibrate and didn't hear me call the first 9 (NINE) times. He finally noticed that his phone was lit up and came and got me, Lucy and the pizza. My ankle is turning all sorts of shades of blue and black. It really is charming to behold.

Dave gave me one of the pain pills he had left over from his eye surgery 2 years ago, which konked me out in a flash, but of course meant that I was in lala-land rather than in SL last night.

I waited for Mistress for about 30 minutes or so. I am hating the time difference between us. Between that and our opposite work schedules, our times online together are too rare. Same with Jan but that is more due to my sudden busy-ness at work than our time difference.

My latest blunder

I completely missed paying the rent. I am really very lucky that Mistress happened to check when she did because I had 0 (as in zero) days left on the lease. If she hadn't paid it, not only would everything in the house been returned, we might even have lost it if someone came along at the right time. I suppose you could say that this is the good news.

I'm hesitant to call this the bad news. That seems disrespectful somehow. The other news - good or bad - is that of course Mistress would never let something like this go unpunished. She did after all have to pay the rent on my house.

Part of the punishment seemed very simple. Mistress gave me that 'Not a word' command when she logged in. The last time she said that, it turned out that she was just having a bit of fun but most of the time when she says that she is either busy in IM or - like this time - she is upset with me.

The difficult thing about this was so badly wanting to talk to her and not being able to. I haven't seen her in days and I know she's been slightly under the weather. I was so looking forward to just talking to her. I deprived myself but more importantly, I deprived HER of that pleasure by forgetting something so important.

She has mentioned this before - that we so often need to spend the time we get to share (precious as it is) on punishments. I hate that we have to spend our time like this but I suppose I wouldn't want it to be otherwise. Mistress' steadfast and unchanging consistency is one of the things I admire most about her. It makes me feel safe somehow. It is something that can be counted on and relied on. There is shelter and regularity with her.

On a technical note, she mentioned that I get IMs when the rent is due but for the life of me I don't recall ever seeing one.

[1:21] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to type in chat
[1:22] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to see chat
[1:22] Emilee's Ring: Emilee may see chat from Jacquelin Mazi
[1:22] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to TP to LM's
[1:22] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to TP using Map
[1:22] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to TP to Friends
[1:22] Emilee's Ring: Emilee may TP to Friends for only Jacquelin Mazi
[1:22] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to edit/build
[1:25] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to wear more clothes
[1:25] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to see names
[1:25] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to fly
[1:25] Emilee's Ring: Emilee is not permitted to see minimap

This all looks pretty heinous but the worst is by far that she said 'Not a word.'

I just worked on my chores tonight.

I am missing Mistress more and more and even though Jan was online I had to spend the night doing things for Mistress.