What if I had gotten this one wrong?

[0:22] Hell Bop Bar Scramble Game: SIUVBEIYSMSL - to allow another person or group to have power or authority over you, or to accept something unwillingly:
[0:22] You: submissively
[0:22] Hell Bop Bar Scramble Game: Congratulations Emilee Gackt, you have won this round in 15 seconds.
[0:22] Hell Bop Bar Scramble Game: The word was 'submissively'.


I shudder to think!

An abbreviated conversation between Mistress and me:

[1:10] Jacquelin Mazi: do you believe it concerns me how much you are suffering?
[1:11] Emilee Gackt: I'm not sure Mistress.
[1:11] Emilee Gackt: Am I still just a slave to you?
[1:13] Jacquelin Mazi: Beyond simple basic existence, I am not so concerned about your suffering as long as you are obeying me

I blogged about Mistress' ability to be so consistent a week or so ago. This is what I was talking about. She is unswerving in her treatment of me no matter how I perceive things between us. I'm not sure anyone else would have that ability.

[1:14] Emilee Gackt: Yes Mistress. I guess I am glad that you said that.

I am glad because (as odd as this might sound) it is like taking a vitamin or working out. I will be stronger in the long run and know myself better and be better able to please Mistress.

[1:15] Jacquelin Mazi: "Listen lil gackty one.... IF you should suffer at the hands of another, be it RL or SL..... I will become VERY upset and VERY concerned..... BUT... if you are suffering and struggling to please and serve me.... *shrugs*.... I have a plan...... I have my reasons.... and your purpose is to endure for ME.... is that clear?"

This is a big part of what is so fascinating to me about this relationship. There is concern and care and at the same time, she will intentionally let me suffer as long as it is for her. It is a wonderful contrast - like sweet and salty together.

[1:19] Jacquelin Mazi smiles placing a hand gently on your heart as she speaks: "It hurts as much as it arouses you hm?" *smiles*

How does she know? What else does she know about me that I haven't realized myself?

We were with Dina for a time tonight as well. She is having a tough time because she is not a native English speaker. And I thought I had a tough time when I was new with Mistress. Sheesh. Dina is slowly becoming a pet project. Hmm... I am going to try to help her find an SL job... so should I get a percent of her SL pay?