Mouselook is SO...

...bloody annoying but how is it possible that i keep forgetting about it when i log in? Everything is all black for me every time i log in and the first idea i have is that Mistress has me in some box in the cellar, all locked up for doing something dumb. i suppose that is actually partially true in a very small way but still, it seems odd even to me that each time i log in i am surprised to find myself dealing with mouselook again, which is a serious bugger.

i'm still working on trying to get my subfolders labelled and so far the advice i have gotten is to do just what we've already tried. Additional serious bugger.

[6:56] Rowan Tunwarm: http://wiki.secondlife.com/wiki/RestrainedLifeAPI#Shared_Folders - i already checked this and we've tried it

[6:56] Addy Broome: There's no "standard"... Yep, could have guessed that.

[6:57] Cherle Tigerpaw: I prefix mine with a > Possibility for next time i see Mistress; Be optimistic about it gackty!

[6:57] Addy Broome: Only the first folder has to have a # (#RLV). Yep, figured that.

[6:57] Addy Broome: If you prefix with a dot (.folder) it won't show up in the listing. Yep, found that out by labelling every single one of the subfolders with a dot.

i told Mistress i'd be online at 6 this morning and i didn't wake up until about 6:30. Oops. Not sure what happened there actually. i distinctly remember setting my alarm for just before 6 but when i checked it just now it was set for 9:45 pm. The buggers are just flying around here today!

The never ending project

[0:31] Emilee Gackt: Does anyone know if there is a specific way that subfolders in my RLV folder need to be labelled?

Anyone? Anyone at all?

i got a notecard that didn't have anything on it that we haven't already tried and a link:

[0:33] Inasol Rugani: http://realrestraint.blogspot.com has two nice tutorials about the #rlv its all you need
[0:33] Emilee Gackt: Thank you!

i am going to install the new version of RLV and then look up these tutorials. And then hope for the best and the death of this project.

Keeping Mistress informed, the cost of not

i sent Mistress an email telling Her that i'd be rather busy during my first week home with welcoming parties and trips to see friends and family. That was the problem... i sent AN email, as in one. It was almost as if i put her on (and SL really) on hold for a week.

i should have emailed Her again, at least just to say that She was on my mind, that i was looking forward to seeing Her again, etc.

She let me pick my punishment. i hate it when She does that (not that She does it all that often). It had to be zaps so i had to pick a number. Ugh! i said fifty, not really realizing that i'd probably have been zapped to a stupor if She'd actually given them all to me.

A related side note: Mistress has asked me to cry for Her. This is a huge challenge for me since my mother did her best to scare any emotion out of me. Until now, this had been impossible for me.

Back to the main story: i was feeling pretty low about having left Her waiting and after 5 zaps, Mistress 'added the 0' for me. In other words She took 45 zaps off my self-imposed sentence. This was too much for me... the guild and regret and sadness and then all of a sudden She does something kind for me. i was surprised in a way and glad that i was actually brought to tears for Her.

My punishment was toned down quite a bit but is a major annoyance. i am in mouselook for the next few days. i hate mouselook almost as much as i have Filipino food.

i did miss Her this past week and it was a joy to be with Her again, even for the short while she was online.

She got an IM from another prospective slave when we were together. According to this wannabe. her Mistress has disappeared from SL months ago and so she was looking for a new home/owner. Mistress had me check and it turned out that her Mistress had been gone for a long time. It had been at least zero days since She had logged in.

Mistress arranged a little meeting between this prospective slave and the partner of her former Mistress. It was like watching a verbal car-wreck. i was embarrassed but i was also utterly curious and filled with respect for Mistress.

People should fear Mistress like the bible talks about fearing God. She always finds out the truth about people and what they say. Today's lesson, brought to you by capital T: Always tell Mistress the Truth!

It's good to be home

i'm not surwe why i let myself expect this but i felt like i should confirm it with Mistress either way:

[9:01] Jacquelin Mazi: To answer your questions... your diet remains the same.

i guess i figured that all the diet restriction i had were 'travel rules' and that they'd be relaxed once i got home.

Disappointing but honestly it's for the best. i'll be healthier and keep Mistress happy at the same time.

A little late

This blog is actually from yesterday.


i heard from Ellery again, kind of out of the blue. We talked about times online and it seems that we are about as opposite timewise as two people can be. The way she put it was that she logs in just as i am on my way out.


This is kind of a bummer since i was looking forward to having her around. We seemed to click from the moment we first met.


Plus she was nice enough to join my group.

How i am like a Filipina

The people that i have been working with and living among have spent years and years in poverty, deprived of even simple things like a floor that isn't made of dirt. When they get something (like the tiny bags of M&Ms i pass out during training) they are genuinely grateful. i have seen people here eat every last crumb from a Pringles can or a Doritos bag. It is almost as if they don't realize that having a job is supposed to bring long-term prosperity and so they enjoy every crumb of every small treat that they get.

i feel sort of like this with Mistress but i don't mean to say that She is so stingy with Her grace and kindness that i am so destitute. What i mean is that when She offers me something, it is usually received the same way that the 'Pinos accept just one M&M. i am deeply grateful for it and will cherish it and i have no doubts that Mistress gives and takes in rhythm. She will take until i have nothing more to give and then take some more and when She gives back. even a tiny bit seems like a lottery jackpot.

Does this make any sense? At all?

Well this is a bugger

Mistress gave me a project to work on where i need to become a semi-expert on the tweaks and settings in SL preferences. Once i have some answers that are relevant, timely and valuable i will post them here (after sharing them with Mistress and getting Her permission of course).

So the challenge is that SL changes things in there (Preferences) so frequently that any resources that are published about how to set things for the best performance are out of date almost as soon as they are printed.

Even SLs own help button provides partial and out of date information.

Even if i do find current, relelvant information it will be a huge challenge to condense it to a meaningful small mountain of data. Of the 5 or 6 pages that Mistress asked me to look at, just one page has all of this: